Line

if you dont
mind id have
a
few tears
flying under your
wings
so
low
the porcelain skin
pixie
asks for a
dance
and turns the
cheek
days grow colder
and time slows
sober
to manage
a life
unattainable
missing
you
...

shine

suffocate
and dream
try to balance
loathe
and
time
spin
and
bleed
giving up on
love
poke
and
lie
taking what is
not yours
build
and
shine
leaving a trail
collapse
and
crumble
story
was
a
dream
suffocating
...

920dr

ahhh
summer
again
drunk
and
incense
i remember that
searching for a
talking to someone
i thought was
a friend in
the night but
long lost too
bad
sad
for the loss
but not what
you think cause
1998
not
2005
PM
...

Unfold

she smells like
ginseng
and
warm
come
she doesnt want
to be here
with
morphine
he will dream
and
misery
she
wont
sleep
its just a
hole to feed
try to feel
after
a
chemical
seclusion
anything but sorrow
and
misery
the reception is
blocked
surprised
goddam
shocked
its just the
gratitude
unfold
...

heartache

What's become of you?
You've been bought for less than you think

I hope for anything
but really there's nothing.

How much can you take?
How much can I take?

You hope for everything
But really there's nothing.

But really there's nothing

just like
me, you've
lost your
sight now

just like
me, you
see no reason
to fight

but you won't
find your
pot of
gold here

just like
me, you
can't be
told now

MOnTH

sick and yellow
a trail and
holes
losing
lost
but getting better
death could be
near
but not afraid
no suicide not
low like you
i dream
and
you play
i dance
while
you sway
in
misery
a single tear
should do
...

faulthER

havent eaten since
i last saw you
you said youd
walk me out
i said
not needed
someones not happy
but i hope
you realize
its not me
and i promised
not to be that guy again
but all came
back
worthless efforts
for a clouded mind
mind over matter
mind over madher
mine over er
someday
i hope you
understand
that i did
what i could
with what i got
ive been working
its all a process
some say a joke
but my love
doesnt leave me
it will always be there
till the end
till then
...

drowing in a sea of liquor
drowing in a sea of tears
drowning in a sea of sorrow
...

Majik

Very Soon
Forever More
The Way to Be
Will Be Attached
Forever Matched
Through What U See

broken heart

i try so
hard
to
stay
intact
a broken heart
a screaming soul
a raped spirit
of a blackened
life
a lost man
crying in the
dark
been gone for
far too long
too frail
ailing
from substance abuse
love tested
a loser
no peace
a distance
that ive created
a word she
parted
a world
crushed
feeling naked
and sorrow
drowning
in
a
sea
of
tears
my god
what have i done
stuck my arm
for some real fun
struck my loved
one
happy?
dancing with myself
piece of me
youll carry with
you
...

pOre

the point of view
the bleeding heart
the easily digested hurt
a fantasy the way it could
the shaping things a prostitute
a naked mix a magazine
a picture of us in a dream

without

dont wanna use
dont wanna eat
dont wanna sleep
without
you
...

May Your Hearts Stay Strong

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prostitute

Prostitute
what is it i love
about you
is it the
sex
you provide
cheap service
your tan skin
blonde hair
maybe its those
eyes
and those lips
that lie so
much
the heart of
deceit
what is it
i love about
the one that
gives herself to
everyone
with a debt
im still paying
...

time

im feeling
feeling
that
all my life
this life
has
has been
a let down
dont let me down
im not that kind
but i know
i know
that i can be better
why wouldnt i
why wouldnt i disappear
after
all ive become
i am nothing
i am there
for no one
im not there for you
i am a whole
im not alive
ive been suffering for
too long
and youre not around
something
ive been used to
but
i still dont understand
why
wasted
...

23

i took a
hit
she said deal
with it everyones
in love but
i got the
weather
sunshines so lonely
when youre asleep
to dance is
so hard when
youre walking away
the heart beats
slow
alone
when you lie
dormant
...

get through it

come on
come on
come one
...

human disease

no
more
suffering
...

13

goodbye my love
its time to say goodbye
ive gotta get over
ive gotta get better
id rather cry alone
than have you seen me
like this
id rather deal with the pain
at my own pace
i know its a bit much
but i dont mind the
guilt
half the time im not there
so anyways
pick yourself up off the floor
and do your best
whether i stay
or go
i dont know
and its not in your hands
so dont you worry
i wont mind
im just broken hearted
id rather let you go
than
let you down
anymore
and i know
you feel it too
goodnight
...

alone

my knees
scrape
through
every level of
hell
what have i
been denying myself of
i dont dare take anyone
with me
not this time
im determined to fight
fight my way
the only way out is through
will you be my crutch
pick me up
you and my only friend
i will carry on
...

lost

your breath is the fresh air
i miss on the back of my neck
your eyes the sunshine that
hasnt touched my skin in days
your lips a silence that is
lost
your flesh a peace thats only
felt inside
your smile trapped within
my heart
...

Were on the Western Side

"Really, the disease is centered in our thinking, and primarily in the ego. It is a disease of self centeredness. If we can learn to be loving, selfless, kind, considerate, honest, trustworthy, caring and true to our principles, then it is highly unlikely we would ever use again. Its a daily practice. Buddhism is a fantastic launch pad for living those spiritual principles. The ego is a spoiled child. It needs to be gently refused its food. Love truly is the only answer to the problem of addiction. "

Bradley Stewart

a man i use to talk to

early in my junk phase

him along with david reilly

gave me words of encouragment

during my desparte periods

i remember late nights

talking to him

the smell of nag champa

i had this strange feeling

like i needed to listen to Sorry You Saved Me

upon checking up on him

i found that he had passed

OCT 08 08

he was best known

as

GIDGET GEIN

...

silver

the nights have been grey
there is a panic in the chest
a fear of necrotizing
a hatred towards a virus
eyes half closed
and somehow clean
no more scraping the bottom
for what its worth
id rather be bored
than desparte
...